Thursday, August 21, 2014

Shaken up



Apparently, I've miscarried this past March.  I was over 1 week late, when I started bleeding on & off for 9-10 days.  I never speculated pregnancy & loss at that time. I was more concerned about my late period, and then relieved it came.  Actually, I peed on a stick when my period didn't happen the following month, in April. Little did I know, my body was recovering from the loss.  

I was 6 weeks, Which is where I am now.  I had the same pregnancy symptoms as I have now.  Everything seems the same, except now I have four positive home preg tests.  Yes, I retook it once more when I realized I miscarried earlier this year. 

Honestly, I didn't feel as protective of this pea as I do now, knowing how careless and unaware I was.  I'm trying to stay positive for this current pregnancy, but can't help to wonder about the first.  Sorry really, to not even know of it's existence until now.  I feel a bit of shock, bit of fear, bit of horrible.  I think I'm starting to grieve now.

I would have been due November 21, and currently been almost 27 weeks.  Lettuce turning into a cauliflower.  Goodbye my angel baby 

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