7 weeks

Tough

The past 24 hours have been rough..

Finally little natalie is sleeping peacefully in my right arm. I'm losing sensation but will brace through it  

5 weeks

5/16/15

Time just keeps passing, 

Just seems like I just gave birth & met my little baby.  But here I am with an almost-chubby little person of mine.  I sometimes look at her, overwhelmed by love, and wonder jc 

My Problems

When they baby was up since 4AM and finally falls asleep after 8AM

But.. Deeply asleep, snoring softly, beautiful to see & hear. But On my chest

My boobies are KILLING me

I need her to nurse or I need to pump

But I don't want I wake her...

Laying here wondering what to do, seems like a bigger dilemma than anything I've had to decide before

Can't believe this is my life ..

I envy (non- parents) people having real problems, making real decisions 

Becoming a mom, I realize how these small (stupid) decisions can occupy the mind, to almost a point of insanity 

Now I see how it's such a big deal.. Which preschool/ summer camp/ 50% on a spelling test can become

4 weeks

5/9/15

Post partum, babies are no longer something weeks old. But it's become a habit, after time lining my pregnancy in suchc fashion

Happy 4 weeks, to my beautiful (& perpetually hungry) little baby Natalie 

She likes being tucked inside an armpit, my shoulders were crampy but I didn't care since my heart was full 

Happy Mother's Day

My first as a mother.

Spent at home, with husband and daughter.  Pancake brunch & Mexican dinner.  I prefer no other way 

Also, thought this article just hit home for me 

I Finally See You, Mom

http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/7161612

Ortho

Update- just got back from the pediatric orthopaedic appt

- They X-rayed, her hip is NOT dislocated

- NP did a full exam, nothing else concerning & readjusted the harness

- pediatric ortho surgeon also recheck the harness refit 

Had us Reschedule the hip ultrasound, right now at 6 weeks 2 days.  I'm tempted to push it to 7.. Cuz that week I have dr appt everyday (tues US, wed Obgyn, thur ortho, fri ped !!)

Plan is to harness until ultrasound results. Ortho might take her off or order an additional 6 weeks.  

Also, she's 8lb 1oz (with her clothes and harness on, so prob almost 8lb) which means she gained more than her 1 oz/ day!! AND i got the Ok to wear her as long as her legs face out. I got a stash.. k'tan wrap, bjorn, beco & Ergo 360 hehe 

Husband just got..

..pooped on

Bright yellow uni-like poo

Last week, I wasn't quick enough covering baby with a washcloth after washing her bum in the sink. She had an accident and peed all over me & my pants.  Thought that was bad

Nope, being pooped on is worse

Too bad I was in shock, 

We don't have a photo documenting this moment ;)

Mothers Revolve Around Their Children

Happy 3 weeks, my angel

With everyday, I become less of myself and more your mother. I can clearly see how women lose their identity to simply become a child's mom.  It's all worth it, as I start knowing your nuances.  

I'm getting quite well versed on how to keep you more comfortable.  It's really the simple things.. when to diaper change, how to diaper change as quickly as possible with the Pavlik harness.  When to feed you, when to wake you up for a feed.  How to feed you, how to pace your feeds.  You've started having gas, and I've started giving you back massages with 2 fingers squeezed behind your harness back straps.  Techniques to put you to sleep, then keep you asleep (hopefully in your bassinet but oftentimes) even if it means that I'm awkwardly sit-laying to become your warm vibrating mattress.  These small simple things define my life as of now, along with every 2-2.5 hours pumping sessions to provide your sustenance. 

I live for your smiles, your grunts and gurgles.  I love your smell, your soft skin, your full head of blonde streaked dark hair.  My heart is full, as you grew an extra chin and a giant belly this past week.  I live to see you developing, Just yesterday you changed your focus to me as I came to you.  You looked straight at me, into my eyes. Oh how it thrilled me that you wanted to see your mother.

I love you so much, incredibly so.